Since beginning my job as Sr. Minister of Unity of the Palm Beaches my days, weeks, and months are as dynamic as has been any time in my life. I am curiously both busy and relaxed, tired and yet energized, passionately engaged though almost completely unattached to outcomes.
My life has changed drastically. After working independently for several years it is a real shift to have a more regimented schedule. I am by nature a free spirit. I always loved being able to take off and go whenever the impulse rose within me. And yet here I am; working on a set schedule, in an out-of-home office, and adhering to contractual free time and often self imposed long hours. I am, after all, the boss.
I have become strangely comfortable living outside of my comfort zone. I have come to realize that I am no longer governed by my preferences. My deep desire to be of service is now more important to me than whether or not I can take off at a moments notice or choose to go down under for an indefinite period of time.
I have found my freedom in deciding to really and fully show up. While there are things I would love to have the time to do more of, I know the things that I am engaged in are relative to living my greatest life of love. I no longer fear commitment or being all in. I am more interested in the good for all than I am the good for me. It is liberating to know that life isn’t all about me and my personality wants. I have come to relish the gift of enduring discomfort in service of another Soul. That isn’t martyrdom. That is the recognition that I though I am A center of the Universe, I am not THE center of the Universe. My contributions to others matter to me. They don't define me, but they do resonate as purposeful. My own transformed pain has meaning when I can use it to help others.
I am finally getting over myself for the sake of my Self. I am finally free to give my greatest gifts. If to do that I need to stay planted and more scheduled then so be it. I lived the life of a gypsy for a long time. Now I am rooted. Even comparatively regimented.
And I am more radically expressed than ever.
